small sighs.

2 papers down. and i totally screwed up on the second. im so darn sad about it. i studied! i meomorised like mad! but a twist in the name of the stupid strategy and i was confused already. there goes my paper. hope i really dont fail it. im so stupid! argh.

i went into a 2 hour depression where Hun kept consoling me not stop on the phone (he was at work).

anyway tomorrow will be my last paper, brand management. hope history dont repeat itself. im feeling so slack and too light hearted to study now.

on a heavier note, i guess every relationship will have its own unique problem. (unique sounds a wee bit too good to describe a problem. but, i mean .. a core problem). as i said, i used to be that blabber. than woman who will not shut her mouth up - because i simply cannot keep things to myself. things changed to a point where i know i have to but still i cant. then to a stage where i try but it is killing me. till now. im happier doing it then to open my mouth again. is it better or not. well.. its been what was hoped for.. wasnt it.

i have not memorised my notes and i have a paper tomorrow morning. its 11:46pm now.

tomorrow will spell freedom. ill blog and update pictures..

have a week or so to rush projects after tomorrow before mum's birthday dinner and preparing for my genting trip.

im feeling so broke and ungroomed and unbeautiful right now. but again, im contented because i now my mummy has been providing me well. how much can i expect for a student.
till the day i :

earn my fulltime pay
pay my own handphone and utilitybills
pay for my own grocery shopping (can choose my favourite shampoo.. shower cream.. etc!)
give mummy and daddy part of my salary
save part of it for future use (car? house? holiday?)
shop with no guilt .. (maybe just a little after all those outputs mentioned above)

sounds good :)

back to studies.